A Wing and A Prayer

Hey fellow bloggers,

Yesterday’s post was pretty dark and I apologize for that. I try not to allow myself to “go there”, so I would like to switch gears. I found a poem on FamilyFriendsPoems.com. This poem was written for the author’s sister who struggles with cancer. Please enjoy her words as I have and I pray it gives you courage, if that is what you seek, like myself.

Stay strong, warriors ❤️

A Wing and A Prayer by Michelle Butler

Under the wing of an angel, we feel protected

Through prayers to God, we feel connected

 

Peace is said to be offered on the wings of a dove

Prayers can bring peace along with hope, faith, and love

 

Wings of a jet plane provide steady flight

I pray you remain steady and strong through this fight

 

Butterflies have wings to fly playfully free

And free from this monster is what I pray you’ll soon be

 

Birds spread their wings as they may leave their nest

We’re spreading our prayers that you’ll always be Blessed

 

Go fight and win this battle you didn’t start

On the wings of an angel and prayers from my heart

Faith

One would think that in the past 24 hours, every negative entity that lurks around in our universe wants to destroy every ounce of goodness I have left. Everything that could go wrong has gone wrong. If I allow it, it has the potential to discourage me from my walk with God and make me completely give up on my life altogether.

There are a few reasons why I won’t and can’t give up:

  1. Hannah
  2. Rj
  3. Christian
  4. Mark 9:23 says, “-anything is possible if a person believes.”
  5. Philippians 4:13 says “I can do all this through him who gives me strength.”
  6. Matthew 17:20 says “‘You don’t have enough faith,’ Jesus told them. ‘I tell you the truth, if you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there’ and it would move. Nothing would be impossible.'”

I am so tired of cowering in the corner, crying like an infant when bad things happen. It’s not how I was raised and I will not allow this to become a permanent part of me. If I want to survive, if I want to push past these mental and physical ailments that have presented themselves to me, I have to be brave – I have to stand tall against the enemy who is trying his best to kill me.

I will do as God instructed in Ephesians 6:13-18. I will put on every piece of Gods armor so I that I will be able to resist the enemy. He tells us to stand our ground, put on the belt of truth, the body armor of Gods righteousness, for shoes we put on the peace that comes from the Good News, hold up the shield of faith, put on the helmet of salvation, and take up the sword of the Spirit which is the world of God. 

If I allow the enemy to get to me, thoughts of suicide cloud my mind every minute of every day. I proclaim, right now, that he will no longer be allowed to enter my mind. He will no longer be allowed to control how I feel or what I do.

Today’s devotional stated:

Jesus promises that anyone who believes in who he is – anyone who entrusts himself to the person of Jesus – will never encounter an impossibility. -Jennifer Kennedy Dean

I trust that everything that has happened in the past 24 hours is apart of his plan. And if it’s not apart of his plan, I believe that he will deliver us from Satans grasp and bless us beyond our dreams. I also believe that he will not, nor ever, abandon us in our time of need.

That being said, I hope everyone had a wonderful day. And if you didn’t, then you always have tomorrow to start over. God bless each and every one of you. If you are going through a hard time, just remember, God will never abandon you. 

Faith does not grasp a doctrine, but a heart. The trust which Christ requires is the bond that unites souls with Him; and the very life of it is entire committal of myself to Him in all my relations and for all my needs, and absolute utter confidence in Him as all-sufficient for everything that I can require. -Alexander MacLaren

 

 

Steps to Manifesting Your Goals

Hello fellow bloggers,

giphy8Sometimes, when dealing with stress, we forget about the goals that we had before those other situations arose. My kids were surprised when I told them I had dreams. Hannah said, “…but moms don’t have dreams. We are your dreams.” 

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I realized at that moment, that they only know me as, Mom. Not, Ashley the poet, Ashley the dreamer, Ashley the artist, Ashley the super beautiful, super intelligent, super awesome-sauce life giver. 😉☝🏽Just, Mom.😎

I spend so much time doing this and doing that (mom duties) that they haven’t seen me in Ashley mode. Well, in their defense, I haven’t been in Ashley mode in over a year due to mental and physical ailments, but all of that is slowly changing. I am determined to be “me” again, whoever “me” is.

Today, I finally took a step towards developing my candle business. “You make candles, Ashley?” Oh, thanks for asking, and yes, yes I do! It’s so relaxing and I love it. I came up with a bunch of excuses (which we love to do) when it comes to following our dreams:giphy13

  1. I cant afford it
  2. The candle supply store is too far
  3. No one is going to buy them
  4. That money can be used else where
  5. I’m too busy
  6. Ain’t nobody got time for that

So today, I took that leap (well my husband drug me) to the candle supply store to buy supplies. Now, I can’t wait to get to work.

I would like to share with you a list of goals that we should try to manifest in our daily lives in order to LIVE our lives to the fullest and accomplish our goals.

I found this list from a wonderful Instagram page dedicated to meditating and love. If you have Instagram, I recommend visiting her page for daily doses of inspiration. You can find her at @meditateandlove. Don’t worry, I took a screenshot of this list before my social media fast. I just found it and was like, “Ooohhh, I don’t know what to blog about, so I’m just going to blog about something that someone else came up with.” 

  1. Meditate to reprogram your mind
  2. Set a vision/goal board and visualize it
  3. Be grateful and have faith
  4. Have a plan
  5. Acquire necessary skills to get there
  6. Focus on your goal
  7. Take action

Thoughts I had after I read this:

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🌸“Come on, warrior!” (I call myself warrior when I’m trying to get motivated. Don’t judge me!) 

🌸”You got this!”

🌸”Get up, move.”

🌸”Push it, push it, push it.”

🌸”If they can do it (whoever ‘they’ is) then you can do it.”

🌸”Make Jesus proud. He didn’t die for you to moan and cry all the time.”

“Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men” (Colossians 3:23)

The moral is follow your D.R.E.A.M.S! Do not allow your circumstances to discourage you. My motto is, if you think about a goal that you want to accomplish more than fives times a week, then you need to get off your rump shaker and go for it!🤪👍🏽

“Procrastination is one of the most common and deadliest of diseases and its toll on success and happiness is heavy.” -Wayne Gretzky

NatGeo #2

Hello Friends,

As some of you may know, I love National Geographic’s. This week, I wanted to share with you photos from their website called 7 Gorgeous Photos from National Geographic. If you’re a city girl like me, I would recommend taking in the beauty that nature has to offer. Even if it’s in a photograph.

I pray everyone had a wonderful weekend. Stay blessed! ❤️❤️ Enjoy 😉

“Wherever you go, no matter what the weather, always bring your own sunshine.” -Anthony J. D’Angelo

Feelings? How Many Of Us Have Them?

giphy4Mental illness sucks. I’m sitting here trying to come with clever ways to express those three simple words, but all the comes to mind is mental illness sucks. One reason why it sucks is that mental illness will trick you into believing that feelings matter. When, in the grand scheme of things, they do not. For example, mental illness makes me feel like I’m a bad mother for having a mental illness. When the truth is, I’m not. It’s because of mental illness that I am a good mother. I am always conscious of making sure that my children do not experience the harsh realities that come with having a mentally ill parent. I am always aware of their feelings and what may or may not be affecting them.

Because of my mental illness, I am more aware of my children’s mental stability. I know what it is like to have a parent with a mental illness. For years, I failed to understand why my mother chose to do and say the things that she did to us. I used to be upset with her, but after learning what her struggles are, it made it easier for me to forgive her. Which brings me to my previous point; mental illness will trick you into believing that feelings matter. If feelings truly mattered, then I would be unable to forgive my mother because she has hurt me in ways that no child should be hurt. But I’ve chosen to forgive her for a couple of reasons…

  1. Peace of mind “I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.” -John 16:33
  2. God says I have toBear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.” Colossians 3:13

giphy5For me, forgiveness is more about me than it is about you. People chose not to forgive because they feel they may be doing that person a favor or they may feel like that person doesn’t deserve to be forgiven. But then there is that word again, feel. If you are having a hard time forgiving someone, ask yourself…what great feeling do you have when you chose not to forgive? Do you feel better or worse? Do you feel like a weight has been lifted off of your shoulders or do you feel angry and bitter?

giphy6Feelings should have nothing to do with doing the right thing. For example, saying hurtful words feels so good when I’m angry. When I become angry, my mind begins to fill with horrible thoughts. It’s like I am possessed. I am capable of saying some pretty awful things. When I’m angry, it feels great to say those awful things…until I calm down. Then I feel like the worst person in the world. I then, begin to obsess about how to make it right. Thus, resulting in an obsessive cycle of beating myself up. All because I felt angry. When in fact, my feelings should not cause me to want to hurt someone else. God says:

When you tell you these things, we do not use words that come from human wisdom. Instead, we speak words given to us by the Spirit, using the Spirits words to explain spiritual truths. -1 Corinthians 2:13

Feelings can be wonderful; joy, hope, serenity, gratitude, faithfulness, love, clarity, etc. It is the negative ones that mental illness uses to feed on. Mental illness is just like every monster you’ve read about growing up. The more you feed it what it wants, the stronger it becomes.

giphy7Right now, I feel overwhelmed and hopeless. I feel like I am never going to move past these moments of dread and disparity. I feel like I am losing the war that is going on in my mind and body, but guess what? Those are just feelings. They are not my reality. We have to hold on to the fact that feelings do not define our truth, they do not reflect our reality. They just simply reflect our mind frame.  We have to keep reminding ourselves that we are more than what we are feeling at the moment. Moments are periods of time that have a beginning and an end. Moments can last for seconds or for years, but we are not meant to set up permanent residence in said moments. We are meant to live life, embracing those moments so we can learn and grow from them. What do you do when you are done reading a chapter in a book? You move on to the next chapter, right? Moments are chapters in your book of life. Don’t stay stuck in one chapter because you feel trapped or hopeless.

Thank you for reading my thoughts. I appreciate every last person that decided to hit that FOLLOW bottom. You’re the real MVP’s! Stay blessed.

“Anxiety does not empty tomorrow of its sorrows, but only empties today of its strength.” -Charles Haddon Spurgeon

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Funny Fridays

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Hello All!

Today for Funny Friday, we are going to switch it up a little. A few years ago, I was introduced to Chuck Norris jokes. For my international friends, Chuck Norris s an American martial artist, actor, film producer and screenwriter. He has starred in action classics, such as The Hitman, The Delta Force, and Walker: Texas Ranger. 

Honestly, I am not a huge Chuck Norris fan, but I think the jokes about Chuck Norris are hilarious. So, sit back and enjoy. I hope you find them as ridiculously funny as I do.

flashyadmirablegar-size_restricted1. Chuck Norris and Superman once fought each other on a bet. The loser had to start wearing his underwear on the outside of his pants.

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2. When Alexander Graham Bell invented the telephone, he had three missed calls from Chuck Norris.

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3. Chuck Norris can blow bubbles with beef jerky.

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4. Chuck Norris has a bear skin rug in his front room. It’s not dead, it’s just too scared to move.

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5. A Black Mamba once bit Chuck Norris. After three days of excruciating pain, the Black Mamba died.

 

Thank you all for reading. Have a wonderful rest of your Friday (or Saturday for my international readers). Let me know if you like Chuck Norris jokes. I have plenty more to share! 🙂

Apple Pickens Giggen Bottoms

Hey friends!

So I wanted to share a true moment of joy for me. Right now, I am chilling in very large/very small sofa couch thing. Sorry, I don’t know the technical name for it. Anyway, it’s in a private spot that my husband set up for me next to our patio door so I can have a “zen” writing area. My view is filled with naked trees, modern buildings, but most importantly a beautiful, bright blue sky.

wildmedicalindiancow-size_restrictedSo this moment of joy that I’ve just experienced was brought by one small memory. Picture this, 12-year-old Ashley, feeling unloved and unwanted by her loved ones. While struggling with the developments of puberty (but then again, who didn’t struggle with puberty?). My boyfriend (very 1st) introduced me to the sweet sounds of Boyz II Men.  I will never forget hearing…

I long for, the warmth of, days gone by
When you were mine
But now those days are memories in time
Life’s empty, without you
By my side
My heart belongs to you
No matter what I try

-Boyz II Men, 4 Seasons of Lonliness

…for the first time.

sinfulclumsybactrian-size_restrictedSince that moment, I became obsessed. I consider myself one of the biggest Boyz II Men fans in the world. There are very few celebrities that I would stop traffic for, Jesus, Leonardo Decaprio, and Boyz II Men. I developed a connection with this group because they got me through a lot! They were with me when the depression began to rear its ugly head. They convinced me to forgive when my boyfriend broke my heart. They told me to forgive my mother when I was upset with her. They taught me I am worthy to be loved. They taught me to love God and most importantly, love myself. Every song, every melody, every precious note that hit my hear was inspiring my soul.

They replanted the seed of self-worth that has been slowly picked out by heartbreak and betrayal. They taught me how I deserved to be treated as a woman and a mother by my future spouse. I developed a sense of love, hope, and happiness. They helped me daydream of moments that inspire me today to be a good woman, wife, and mother. I wanted to be loved, but I wanted to love deeply and unconditionally. They inspired the hopeless romantic poet you see before you. They taught me how to be expressive. Oddly, they taught me how to love and how to be loved. They taught me my first lesson of developing healthy habits to control my emotions.

I was able to use poetry as an outlet. This later grew into a hunger for learning as much as I can so I can write as much I can. And now I am a blogger. I’ve been writing since I could remember, but it was Boyz II Men (and the love of Jesus) that ignited a passion for what I wanted to write about. A flood of emotions began pouring out like a wild but tamed storm Each time my pencil would mark my notepad. I felt a star being born (a literal star, not “I’m going to be a star” star).

Just now, while typing another blog about (well, I’ll let it be a surprise), a sweet angelic voice came out of my laptop speakers singing

She was like nothing I’d ever known
Her eyes shine like diamonds in a field of snow
The way destiny led her to me
Made me feel like life was now complete

-Boyz II Men, Pass You By

I had to stop what I was doing to share this moment. When Wanye began singing his heart out from my Youtube app, I was immediately reminded of the amount of self-worth and pride I developed. I was reminded of a happier time in society, where self-esteem was not an issue because there were men in this world who knew the value of a woman, a good woman. That woman aren’t b***ches and h**s, but are beautiful creatures gracing the earth with our knowledge and love.

So, ok, you’re saying, “Ashley, get to the point! Why did you to completely stop what you’re doing to share this moment with us?” Or maybe you’re saying, “Ashley, get to the willingfrailasiandamselfly-size_restrictedpoint! This post is taking way too long to read.” Either way, I wanted to completely stop what I was doing to tell you that you are loved. You deserve to be treated like the king/queen that you are. Live every moment of your life feeling every positive emotion that you can; happiness, joy, hope, serenity, kindness, gratitude. Remember the awesome things that make you, you.

You are awesome-sauce! I don’t care what your boss said. I don’t care what your mama said. I don’t care what your kid said. You are BEAUTIFUL! You are WONDERFUL! You are the perfect result of God’s creation and best believe He makes NO mistakes. Boyz II Men told me, now I’m telling you. Love deeply, love intensely, but most importantly, love yourself!

“I love the lord, he heard my cry.” Boyz II Men, Dear God

By the way, if you had noticed, my blog title has nothing to do with my post. I just couldn’t come up with a title and this was the first thing that popped into my head. Thanks for reading. Even all the way down here cause this is a long post. 🙂 Love you all! 

20 Habits To Guarantee Happiness

In today’s society, the meaning of true happiness has been defined as “what can I get for myself” or “what can this other person do to make me happy”.

I hate to break the news to you, but if you are looking for happiness in materialistic entities or other people, you will never be happy…EVER! 

How do I become happy, you ask? Well, below are a few things that you can add to your everyday life that will guarantee true happiness.

  1. Meditate
  2. Have faith
  3. Eat Healthy
  4. Exercise
  5. Read more
  6. Judge less
  7. Respect yourself and other people
  8. Be passionate
  9. Drink more water
  10. Accept your flaws
  11. Stop making excuses
  12. Live in the moment
  13. Have goals
  14. Stop comparing yourself to other people
  15. Stop taking things personally
  16. Never stop learning
  17. Listen more, talk less
  18. Find a purpose
  19. Forgive
  20. Appreciate the little things

I have been desperately applying each one to my everyday life. I will testify, that they have greatly improved how I view my life and how I deal with difficult situations and people that came my way. We cannot change the world by simply sitting back and complaining about it. If each and every one of us developed the above habits, we have the ability to not only improve our own lives but the lives of others around us. Happiness is contagious, just like sadness and disparity. If we take the time to spread more love, then maybe, just maybe, the rest of the world will take heed and follow. If not, then at least your life will be greatly improved.

I hope you all are having a wonderful week.

 

I Suck At Maintaining Friendships

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I suck at maintaining relationships. Whew! There, I said it out loud. I’m sure people that I used to be friends with would say the same thing. It’s always something I’ve known deep down, but I don’t think I’ve actually admitted it until now.

I would love to say that my failed friendships are completely and utterly the fault of said ex-friends, but I would be lying big time! Some friendships I’ve lost because they were toxic. Some I’ve lost simply because we grew apart. But more than I would like to admit, most friendships were lost because of the depression I would have after a manic episode and my inability to seek the appropriate help.

After going through a manic episode, I would go into a deep depression, completely withdrawing myself from everyone; friends, family, co-workers, etc. This was not intentional of course. I would just become a recluse. Now, most people would allow me to wallow in my own misery without a second thought for my concern. But there were a few people who really tried to be a great friend during my moments of severe depression, but eventually, they would feel neglected and leave the friendship, which I totally understand. Afterwards, I would feel so embarrassed and ashamed, I wouldn’t contact them anymore. Regrettably, I’ve lost a lot of great people in my life this way.

pexels-photo-207896.jpegOddly enough, I’ve never been upset with them. I know it is hard to be friends with someone who suffers from severe depression and bipolar disorder. We can be unpredictable. How can I expect anyone to understand what I am going through if I don’t even understand what I’m going through? I mean, honestly, I don’t expect anyone to put up with it. A person can only take so much rejection. Maybe, I’ve never pursued a failed friendship because I know they do not deserve to be shut out of my life just because I’m going through a rough time.

Truly, I don’t think that I’m a very good friend. I love all of my friends, past, and present. Especially the ones that were there for me during some of my dark times and I will always hold them close to my heart.

If you are reading this and we stopped being friends due to my inability to function because of my mental illness, please forgive me. I want you to know that I did love you and appreciate you and it was nothing that you did. It sounds cliche, but it was ALL me, not you. I am so very sorry for not being able to be the friend that you deserved. I’m sorry for abandoning you and leaving you without an explanation. Futhermore, I am sorry for causing any trust issues you may have in the future for anyone who is trying to be your friend. 

pexels-photo-46024.jpegI do have one friend, that no matter how long I go without talking to her, she never gives up on me. She’ll constantly call and harass me until I reply. Even if weeks go by without a word. Somehow, she’s always there. One time, I tried to purposely push her away. At the time, I was unable to see past my own issues and felt she would be better off without me as a friend, but she is relentless. She is a like my husband farts; no matter how far you go to get away, she still lingers. I love her to pieces and sometimes I feel I don’t deserve her. She never reads my blogs post, so she’ll never know much I love her being so dang annoying 🙂

Sometimes, I become sad when I think about how I don’t have many friends. But I think, they are better off. Until I learn how to better handle manic episodes when they occur, no one should be subjected to a part-time friend. People, especially good people, deserve better than that.

pexels-photo-279470.jpegIf you are friends with someone who suffers from a mental illness, please have patience with them. It is not an excuse, but during manic moments, we are not ourselves. Our brains are trying to make sense of the rapid emotions flowing through our body and our mind. Everything feels right but wrong. The sun is shining 24 hours out of the day, while the nights’ dark skies gloom in the background. Up is down and everywhere is nowhere.

Does anyone else struggle with maintaining any kind of relationship while dealing with a mental illness? I would love to hear how it is for you.

Thank you for reading my thoughts.

I’d walk through fire for my best friend. Well, not fire because that’s dangerous. But a super humid room… well not too humid, because you know… my hair. -Anonymous 

Seeking Emotional Refuge in God

We all know the tragedies that have been happening in the world. Some of us ask, why? Some of us are unable to comprehend the magnitude of such events. And some of us are so distraught, we don’t know what to think.

Tonight, I came across Ephesians 6. I feel the following verses gives us some of the answers that we seek. If not, they can provide comfort in knowing God will never abandon us in our time of need, while supplying us with the necessary armor to stand strong against said evil of the world.

Find comfort in God in my friends. He is listening and waiting to give you all the love that you need. ❤️❤️

Ephesians 6:10-20 New Living Translation (NLT)

The Whole Armor of God

10 A final word: Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on all of God’s armor so that you will be able to stand firm against all strategies of the devil. 12 For we[a] are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.

13 Therefore, put on every piece of God’s armor so you will be able to resist the enemy in the time of evil. Then after the battle you will still be standing firm. 14 Stand your ground, putting on the belt of truth and the body armor of God’s righteousness. 15 For shoes, put on the peace that comes from the Good News so that you will be fully prepared.[b] 16 In addition to all of these, hold up the shield of faith to stop the fiery arrows of the devil.[c] 17 Put on salvation as your helmet, and take the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

18 Pray in the Spirit at all times and on every occasion. Stay alert and be persistent in your prayers for all believers everywhere.[d]

19 And pray for me, too. Ask God to give me the right words so I can boldly explain God’s mysterious plan that the Good News is for Jews and Gentiles alike.[e] 20 I am in chains now, still preaching this message as God’s ambassador. So pray that I will keep on speaking boldly for him, as I should.

Images borrowed from lindahabiba.deviantart.com

NatGeo

Good Day Fellow Bloggers!

So, everyday, I get a notification from National Geographic about the wonderful happenings in nature. I absolutely love it! It takes me away from the harsh realities that come with being human into a world that is truly spectacular, nature.

Below are a few photos from their segment, “Photos of the Week”. If you are a photographer, you can submit your work to be featured on their site here.

Please enjoy as I have, how miraculous our world really is. I pray that you are having a wonderful Saturday 🌸

Keep close to Nature’s heart… and break clear away, once in awhile, and climb a mountain or spend a week in the woods. Wash your spirit clean.” -John Muir

Funny Friday’s

Happy Friday everyone!

With all of the recent tragedies and illness’ going around, we have to find time to laugh and love. ❤️❤️ So, please enjoy this story from SunnySkyz.com. Hopefully it’ll make you smile ☝🏽☺️ Have a wonderful Friday, friends 🌸

The Uber Passenger

An Uber passenger tapped the driver on the shoulder to ask him a question.

The driver screamed, lost control of the car, nearly hit a bus, went up on the footpath, and stopped inches from a shop window.

For a second everything went quiet in the cab, then the driver said, “Look man, don’t ever do that again. You scared the daylights out of me!”

The passenger apologized and said, “I didn’t realize that a little tap would scare you so much.”

The driver replied, “Sorry, it’s not really your fault. Today is my first day as an Uber driver – I’ve been driving a hearse for the last 25 years.”

“[Humanity] has unquestionably one really effective weapon—laughter. Power, money, persuasion, supplication, persecution—these can lift at a colossal humbug—push it a little—weaken it a little, century by century, but only laughter can blow it to rags and atoms at a blast. Against the assault of laughter nothing can stand. — Mark Twain

Stop Whining, Ashley!

pexels-photo-529926.jpegFor some time now, I’ve been wanting to blog daily. At first, it seemed like an unattainable goal. Now, after hard work and meeting most of the previous goals that I have set for myself, now I feel that God is telling me that I’m ready. I mean, it’s not like I don’t have anything to talk about. My mind is always racing with ideas, stories, and more ideas. Even if I was unable to come up with anything to blog about, my life is interesting enough with three little people running around. I’m sure that I would be able to come up with great material for you fine folks.

So what is stopping me? Fear? Procrastination? Uncertainty? All of the above. I am fearful because sometimes I doubt my writing ability. I’ve been experiencing a lot of confusion and that feeling of being “lost”. Apparently, a lot of people with Lupus experience the same side effect of this mysterious auto-immune disorder. Then I realized, if God is giving me instructions to blog every day, then that means He will bless me for obeying his directions, so I shouldn’t worry, right? I believe that all of the instructions that He is giving me will lead me to an overabundance of blessings. He has already proven to me that when I listen, I am blessed beyond my imagination. So, I shouldn’t be afraid. And after this, I no longer will be.

pexels-photo-164446.jpegI procrastinate because, well, honestly, sometimes I just don’t feel like it. Especially when I’m sick, and especially ESPECIALLY when everyone in my house is sick and all I want to do is get some sleep…just a wink of rest. But then how I can ask, no, BEG God to bless me when I’m whining about getting sleep? Sounds foolish when I think about it. It’s like God saying, “Ashley, go buy a lottery ticket. You’re going to win.” And I’m like, *in my whiney child-like voice* “…but Lord, I’m tired. Can I go later?” What sense does that make? He’s trying to give me some money and I’m whining.

pexels-photo-858568.jpegI want to be like Abraham. If you don’t know, God asked this man to not only travel, I believe three days (walking distance) away from home, but he wanted him to kill his own son as a sacrifice (Genesis 22:2-3) Crazy, right? But Abraham obeyed without hesitation. He packed up his stuff, grabbed a couple of servants, some supplies, and his son, Isaac, and headed off. Right when Abraham was about to stab Isaac, an Angel screamed out for him to stop. God told Abraham that he has proven his faith and because of it, God wants him to sacrifice a ram instead (Genesis 22:10-12). How awesome is that? Honestly, I couldn’t have done it. My faith is so weak right now, I would’ve been like, “Ok, Lord, I know I didn’t hear that right. So I’m just going to ignore it.” 

I just learned today, actually, what God does when we disobey Him. In Numbers 14:39-45, it says when the Israelites disobeyed God by not going to the land that He promised them, he abandoned them. When Moses told them that God was upset, they were like, “Oh, well let’s go!” But by then, it was too late. God had already abandoned them.

I don’t want it to be too late for me. I don’t want God to abandon me. Which I know he won’t but still. I want to have unshakeable faith. This I pray every day. Give me strength like Abraham, Lord because I know that blessings will outweigh the consequences.

So, expect to see a lot of me! You all have taught me so much from your blogs and I want to thank you for that. This should be easy breezy beautiful cover girl.

“But don’t just listen to God’s word. You must do what it says. Otherwise, you are only fooling yourselves. For if you listen to the word and don’t obey, it is like glancing at your face in a mirror. You see yourself, walk away, and forget what you look like. But if you look carefully into the perfect law that sets you free, and if you do what it says and don’t forget what you heard, then God will bless you for doing it.” James 1:22-25

 

Time for A Celebration!

Here we are again!! Share a link to your blog and I will reblog it on Tuesday’s and Thursday’s ❤️🌸

Harotian Essentials

Picture me, sliding across a wooden floor in white tube socks like Tom Cruise in Top Gun, because I just realized I’m at 365 followers!

All of you, each and every one, is awesome sauce for hitting that follow button. You guys are the real MVP’s, seriously. You inspire me everyday with your blog post, likes, comments, award nomination, etc. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

In celebration, I would like to share the wealth. I want each of you guys to know each other. Most of us follow the same blogs, but here is a chance to meet someone knew. I’ve meet remarkable people with different religions, backgrounds, ethnicity, etc. Its been a beautiful experience. I encourage you guys to do the same.

My favorite feature of the WordPress community is we all have at least two things in common; we’re all human and we all have something to…

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Ode To My True Love

As I lay on your chest while hearing the song of your heartbeat, I reflect on the life that we have together. Who knew that five years ago, God would bless me 😇with someone who would heal all of my wounds from the inside out.

Many told us that we shouldn’t be together, but I thank God every day for allowing our love to blossom 🌸into a beauty that many do not understand. Thank God that He knew what He was doing by blessing me with you 💕

You were made for me and I was made for you. We finish each other sentences. I know what you want before you even ask. My soul is directly connected to yours.☯️

You remind me every day of how much you love me. You are my best friend, my confidant, my lover, and my protector. You are the light 🌟during my darkness, the inspiration 💓 during my self-doubt, and the encouragement 💞during my tough times.

img_1887-e1518618794646.jpgThank you for being the best husband a lady could pray for you. You have exceeded my expectations of what a loving husband is and it is all thanks to our Heavenly Father.

You’ve made all of the pain and heartbreak in my past worth it, because, without their rejection, you wouldn’t have found me, loved me, healed me, and reminded me that I am worthy of true love.

img_2660We have been through the trenches of hell together and because of it, our bond and love have been transformed into a foundation that cannot be destroyed by anyone or anything.

You have loved my children as if they were your own and you have blessed me with a mini-you👶🏽that has all of your most beautiful qualities.

Saying I love you will never be enough to fully express the gratitude and admiration that I have for you. Thank you for never giving up on me. Thank you for setting an example for our children of what real love looks like. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. Most importantly, thank you for loving me for me. 😘

Happy Valentines Day and Happy Anniversary, my love.

“If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you.” -A. A. Milne